I am responding to this week’s questions regarding my own unhealthy attachment to overeating.
How do I consider this substance/behavior pattern a beloved “friend”?
I began overeating when I was a child at around the age of 10 when there were times I was alone after school and feeling lonely. I would use food as a way to calm my anxiety or relieve boredom. When I was younger I noticed that when actual friends were around I was not quite as distracted by the food and I would tend not to overeat as much because I was busy with life, but by the time I was in my teen years, the addictive pattern was fully engaged and I would overeat whether I was around other people or not.
How is it sensual?
Because overeating involves food and the sense of taste it is naturally sensual. This was and continues to be overeating’s addictive appeal for me and why I need to be mindful of my eating.
How does this substance/behavior pattern provide “healing” or is it a “balm” to my emotional wounds?
The substance/behavior is absolutely balm to my emotional wounds in that I have a long history, as I said, in using overeating to deal with loneliness and anxiety. When I was 10 and I was alone after school that came at a time when my parents divorced and I was going through some difficult psychological issues. Over the years there continued to be times I used food as way to avoid uncomfortable feelings and situations. The overeating was definitely soothing and an escape from the distress I was feeling.
How my addictive substance/behavior pattern is “hated” — what has it cost me?
I have gained and lost many pounds over the years and had to deal with the embarrassment that goes along with large weight gains. My cholesterol has been very high, as well as my triglycerides. I have also paid a high cost in the self-absorption that comes with an addiction.
What might be a good resource or treatment method for a behavior change?
Overeaters Anonymous has been an excellent resource for helping me lose weight and achieve some semblance of physical, emotional and spiritual recovery. It is a 12-step program that is not easy to work but if I put in the effort, I do see results. I joined OA seven years ago and lost 67 pounds to get back down to a normal, healthy weight. I would definitely recommend it to those struggling with overeating. For those who have deeper emotional problems and need further support, individual counseling is also helpful as a supplement.
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